tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.comments2011-09-06T20:34:53.341-07:00Kris & Juju.vanderwhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10341817948923757993noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-48217266403560282452011-09-06T20:34:53.341-07:002011-09-06T20:34:53.341-07:00One of my pastors' catchphrases growing up was...One of my pastors' catchphrases growing up was "God is always on Plan A." I find that so reassuring. If you enjoy life as a family of four forever, that's His best for you, not "oh well, it's not quite a family of 6, but..." If you decide, down the road, to open your hearts & homes to children born apart from you, then adoption will be His best for you, not His "oh well, this is the next best thing..."<br /><br />He has your good at heart-- and no one can thwart His perfect plan-- not Satan, not genes, not anything!! "this I know, that God is for me." <br /><br />Praying for you, and so thankful for both your kiddos and your life!Eowyn's Heirhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14717363754137835260noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-33835383565424935732011-05-10T05:04:32.143-07:002011-05-10T05:04:32.143-07:00I clicked on your link through Alysa Clark's w...I clicked on your link through Alysa Clark's website. Your story is amazing. I actually had the same thing (DIC) while delivering my son in June. I cried reading your story as I can relate to a lot of what you were feeling. Thanks for sharing.Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02818883346412113972noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-75504139085686590292011-02-01T19:29:57.284-08:002011-02-01T19:29:57.284-08:00I really resonated with your emotions in both of t...I really resonated with your emotions in both of these posts. I've thought a lot about what you said in the post about wishing Alaise was a little bit more ... possessive. I think if Judah is very independant I'll struggle some with that. I love being the one whose voice he recognizes, the one he calms for when I hold him.Kaciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06374573594800663980noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-49941725877099170812011-02-01T13:28:06.751-08:002011-02-01T13:28:06.751-08:00Thank you so much for posting this. I had nearly t...Thank you so much for posting this. I had nearly the exact same experience. My milk came late and we had to use the feeding tube in the meantime. When it did come, there was only about an ounce TOTAL per feeding. We consulted LCs, I took 4 kinds of supplements, I used a hospital grade pump and pumped 8x a day for nearly two months...totally exhausting. My daughter is almost 9 weeks and I'm weaning off pumping because I'm returning to work and won't have time during the day to pump. Plus, unless I'm pumping 6x a day I won't have much to give her. I struggle with the guilt but I have to accept that my body just doesn't work the way it should. But this is why formula exists. Good for you for trying as long as you did, you're a real trooper. Your kids are very lucky to have such a strong mom.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00933611887962612246noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-88000956038625175192011-01-25T19:46:58.848-08:002011-01-25T19:46:58.848-08:00LOL TMI!!LOL TMI!!Eowyn's Heirhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14717363754137835260noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-39833108946812426052010-12-14T21:41:34.515-08:002010-12-14T21:41:34.515-08:00HEAR HEAR!HEAR HEAR!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-39034488352322210142010-12-10T21:50:36.252-08:002010-12-10T21:50:36.252-08:00Not to fear! There are 18+ years of you being irre...Not to fear! There are 18+ years of you being irreplaceable to her in billions of circumstances!Eowyn's Heirhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14717363754137835260noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-21805699622165710402010-12-10T11:45:45.814-08:002010-12-10T11:45:45.814-08:00I think I might have been a baby like that, too.. ...I think I might have been a baby like that, too.. at least according to my mom and my grandmas.<br />The fact that you are aware of it is good, I think. Because in my case, my parents were really busy and because I was never fussing up about anything, it was real easy for them to become.. somewhat negligent, I guess? And as I grew up I learned to not bother my parents, partly because I was the older child, partly because I felt that I was a burden on them, and just kept pretending (well back then I believed) that everything was hunkydory. The result is.. my parents don't know me and I don't know them and there isn't much of a bond between me and my parents. <br />So, while you may feel 섭섭해 now for Alaise not seeming to think you're special, just keep being there for her, pay attention to her, let her know that you love her no matter what and that you accept her for who she is. I think eventually she'll learn what a special mom you are.<br />지금 와서 내가 우리 엄마를 원망하는 건 아니지만, 옛날 생각을 하면 너무 서러울 때가 있어. 하지만 어느 정도는 내가 자초한 일일 테지. 하지만 아기일 때는 아무 것도 모르고 그러는 거잖아. 그러니까 언니는 아기가 보채는게 없다고 안심하지 말고 오히려 더 신경을 써줘야 할 거야. 말 안 하고 속에 담아두는 자식이 오히려 나중에 가서 더 큰 사고를 칠 수 있거든. 아무리 그게 성격이더라도, 자꾸 말 시키고, 물어보고, 그러면 조금씩 open up 할 수 있을 테지. 내 경우엔 내가 엄마한테 내 속마음을 말했다가 너무 크게 데인 적이 너무 많아서 (even when I was just 4 years old) 내가 스스로 걸어잠그게 되었거든.<br />부디 Alaise는 나처럼 되지 않고 속과 겉이 모두 밝고 행복한 아이가 되길 바래.Ruizaiohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09423657060933544883noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-10751838015105456402010-12-10T04:58:15.147-08:002010-12-10T04:58:15.147-08:00Dear Ju, Thank you for sharing your story. I'm...Dear Ju, Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so glad that you are healthy and can share your story. As I read it, I thought how sad it would be to lose you and I'm happy that you are still here to raise your children, be a wife and continue to serve God. Blessings on you all! -Annecater3cookhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02049815924073910477noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-25069509103011598192010-12-10T01:43:12.088-08:002010-12-10T01:43:12.088-08:00yeah, that is so scary! The kind of thing you know...yeah, that is so scary! The kind of thing you know is possible as you head to delivery but just can't think about. Thank God that He took you through it, and that He has a plan for your little family! - KacieKaciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06374573594800663980noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-29766440554554487042010-12-09T21:42:34.847-08:002010-12-09T21:42:34.847-08:00Wow! I am so glad you are recovering and God bro&#...Wow! I am so glad you are recovering and God bro't you thru. It is wonderful that you have a son and I admire your courage in going through the birth experience again after your first experience. I hope your recovery continues to go well.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06708185569831046808noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-36911158224080664782010-12-09T18:39:40.844-08:002010-12-09T18:39:40.844-08:00and how come I haven't known about this blog? ...and how come I haven't known about this blog? your old link to the old blog is what i checked all the time and thought you just never updated. so now I know :)skajakehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16528111006082100211noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7757176315608380006.post-27018156810817851632010-12-09T18:38:27.899-08:002010-12-09T18:38:27.899-08:00I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my ...I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face! My dear best friend, I am so glad you are okay. I am so sorry that you and Kris have had to do this TWO times! My sincerest and deepest prayers are with you. I love you.skajakehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16528111006082100211noreply@blogger.com